Today’s post is going to be a little different. You see, last week was a terrible week at work. I called it “piss on Cheryl” week. My boss was was very hard on me and blaming me for a variety of issues of which maybe 20% were actually my fault. Needless to say it wore me down.
Friday and Saturday I tried to just let it all go but it all seeped in and by Sunday the darkness had taken a hold of me and I lost the will to fight and took the easy road and gave in to it. I spent the next four days in bed.
My spirit was down which lowered all my defenses which in turn allowed the illness in and fever finally took over. Monday and Tuesday I did manage to get up and take my daughter to school but come Wednesday when the fever was at its peak I told my daughter that I could not drive her.
I slept alot and watched a lot of brainless movies but I did not do a lot of thinking. Looking back now I guess I didn’t just do brainless. I did watch a couple of my spiritual movies, you know the ones I watch when I am down. I guess I knew this was more spiritual than I admitted at the time.
My days were pretty much spent in bed or on the toilet. I just didn’t care about anything. I didn’t really eat and I certainly didn’t drink enough water. Those days were spent in darkness both literally, as I never turned the light on in my room, and spiritually.
Wednesday as my fever spiked I looked out my bedroom window and saw snow falling from the sky and sticking on the ground. They were big snowflakes and I thought for a second that my fever had me delirious. Snow in Tucson is not a sight we are used to seeing.
I just laid back down to go back to sleep. Before I fell asleep again I felt like a bubble burst as my fever broke. I looked out the window again and the snow was still falling. This time I smiled and thought what a wonderful sight I was seeing. And just like that my spirit felt better as well.
It was amazing how much better I felt as I realized that I had been feeling worse than I actually thought. Just feeling my spirit smiling and having the fever gone made me feel so much lighter. The Universe does indeed work in strange ways.
I did make it out of bed and to work today. It felt good to be out in the land of the living again. I am still weak and tired but overall feeling much better.
While I didn’t do much thinking in the past week, I think there was something much more important going on for me. I am not sure what it was but I trust that my Spirit knows.
Oh, and after 30 years as I have been rewatching the entire series of Cagney and Lacey, I still think it is the best tv show ever made.
Have a great week and thanks for reading.