When you no longer believe everything you think,
you step out of thought and see clearly that the thinker is not who you are.
~ Eckhart Tolle ~
This is yet another post from Facebook that really seems to fit what I am going through right now. I am so filled with confusion and I am definitely attached to my thoughts and my mind.
Below is a post from Facebook Friend: 12 Steps To Self Empowerment. When I read these words they truly touched me. I am not quite ready to write a letter like this myself, but I am getting close and once I am ready I will wrtie that letter with gratitude and love.
Dear Past Self & the Past Itself,
We need to speak and talk about the role you played. I’m grateful that you existed because you came to protect me at a time when I was afraid, unsure and without direction. Fear was my parent, keeping me safe, preventing me from hurting and from possible failure.
But I’ve grown up now, and I need to leave you. It’s not that I don’t appreciate you and the role that you played – in fact all I can feel at this present moment is love and gratitude for always putting me first to do what you thought was required.
Welcome to February. One month of 2013 down and 11 more to go. I have good thoughts about 2013 and am looking forward to all that will transpire this year. Lots of changes to come, I know, but I am open and willing to accept all that is thrown my way. My first big heartbreak this year has come since the Niners lost the Superbowl. That’s all I will say about that. Now on to today’s thoughts.
Taking away the Superbowl, I had a terrific time up in the Grand Canyon. It was cold, there was snow on the ground and it snowed Sunday morning, which I thought was pretty cool even though I was the only one. I was picked on all weekend for being cold, but it was all in good fun.
It was so great being able to spend some time with Diana and meeting her friends. One of the best things was when Diana was showing me around her work. It was so cool to have my very own personal tour guide. Of course the scenery was beautiful. The Canyon is simply a sight to see and so spiritual.
Diana and I had some wonderful conversations especially on the drive back to Flagstaff on Monday. I had been having some issues and she was so terrific at helping me understand it all and look at things differently. I said this before and I will say it again, Sometimes talking to your best friend is just what the doctor ordered.
Here we are, the last Thursday of January. It is hard to believe that January is just about over. On one hand I feel like the new year just began and on the other I feel like it has been going for quite a while. It has not been a boring first month of 2013 for me that’s for sure. I am looking forward to the rest of this year. For now let’s just move on to today’s thoughts.
Grand Canyon here I come. I did promise Diana that I would get up to watch the Superbowl with her if the Niners made it to the big game, and sure enough they did. So I am off for a weekend up at the canyon, hanging out with my best friend and watch the Niners win their 6th Superbowl Title! It is going to be an exciting weekend.
I would like to thank my parents and Diana for their parts in getting me up there. It is a joint effort, I guess you could say. I would prefer it not to be that way but it is what it is and I am willing to take whatever is needed so I can get up there. It has been far too long. GO NINERS!!!!!!
I am struggling with a tough decision but it really shouldn’t be tough for me and I know that but I am still fighting the answer that my heart knows. I have no clue why I am fighting when I know the answer. I tell myself that I am being childish and stubborn by fighting what I already know as true, but still the fight goes on.
I am so blessed to constantly find some terrific, eye-opening, just what I needed, posts on Facebook. Here is another one from Facebook User Soulful Intentions – Food For Thought:
Emotions are not a weakness or enemy but a part of the cleansing process. Recognize their importance in your soul expansion by feeling them fully and then letting them go.
” Emotions are not our enemy, they give us clues as to what we need to work on and are assurance that progress is being made”
I absolutely have issues with this. For some reason as I began this new path and opened myself up to Spirit, I also apparently planted some silly notions about what it means to be Spiritually open.