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Sometimes it takes a while to truly figure out what you want or where you want to go. I have been through so much in the last few years and I have certainly had my ups and downs and have been introcued to many new things.
I have, I feel been trying to force certain things because I felt that was my path, but now as I am starting to come out of the cobwebs things are starting to get clearer for me. I am learning what I am truly passionate about and it is not neccessarily what I thought.
I want to help people, that I have known for a long time. My problem was that I had a certain idea of waht helping others meant and I was trying to force my path to go that direction. What I have learned is that you cannot force a path, it has to just open up for you.
I have learned that there are many different ways to help others and my narrow view about it all has to go away. In fact, that view is going away because you can only fool yourself for so long. For the first time in my life, I am embracing stuff that I actually am passionate about and that makes me feel great.
My narrow view did not allow me to see that these things can also help people but in a different way than I thought. The truth is that all the spiritual stuff, the shamanic way, the crystal healing are all fantastic ways to help others and what I thought my path was. As it turns out, I no longer beleive that is my path.
I beleive the spiritual stuff is just for me, to make me a better person, to help me be more grounded, to help me get in touch with my inner self. And there is nothing wrong with that at all. In fact I think it is great. I just don’t believe that, that is my path towards helping others. It is a personal thing to me.
The spiritual will always be a part of me and will flow over into whatever I do, but heading out to help others with healing just is not what is in my heart to do. I am still not totally sure what my true path contains but I certainly have my ideas: writing, art, crystals and chakras.
Where I go with these four things is still up for grabs but these are the things that I am most passionate about and the things that fill my heart with joy, so these are the things I am going to focus on.
I have already started by writing for Bubblews and getting my ETSY store opened. The breadcrumbs have been leading me here even if I was trying to ignore them. I still have a ways to go but I finally feel like I am actually heading in the right direction.
This is certainly going to be an important year for me and I look forward to seeing and experiencing whatever comes my way.