It has now been 5 months since my rebirth, since my life changed, since I truly became open to changing, since I became truly aquainted with Spirit, Mother Earth and the Universe, since I realized I am a Spiritual Being having a Human experience.
I learn something new every day, or maybe I am just really accepting what I already know. I felt such a huge change in my life after the rebirth and I thought I was on easy street. I realize know how silly that thought was because I have certainly had quite a few struggles in the last 5 months.
I know that every struggle is important and is needed for my growth. Recently I feel like I am coming out of the fog. I thought I came out of the fog before but maybe the fog just got thiner. Even after the rebirth, I still spent a lot of time in my head. I spent a lot of energy thinking about the past and the future.
Now I feel much more clear headed. I feel this peace washing through me. I spend very little time trying to figure out the past or the future. Sure I still think about both, but I am not going there now, I am just remembering or dreaming and not letting it take me over.
I still have moments when my head or my Ego takes over but I am getting much better at letting it all go. Giselle has told me many times, just let go and breathe and I whinned about how that is much easier said than done, blah blah blah.
I guess I just needed the time to let everything soak and marinate in me. The way I have been feeling these last few days is worth maintaining so I will do what I need to do to keep it.
I guess that means just let go and breathe. 🙂