Another week passes by. They seem to go pretty fast lately. I wonder if that is becuase I have a few things to look forward to in the next month. Myabe it is just the way time works. Who knows. here are my thoughts today.
Well my Niners sure made a good move and got what I believe is a steal. They traded a 6th round draft pick to the Ravens for Anquain Boldin. Call me crazy, but I think it is crazy for a team to trade a huge reason they just won the Superbowl and especially for such a low pick.
I know, it is a business and you need to make tough decisions and I know Boldin refused to take a pay cut, but still. I am thrilled for it, though, because I belive my Niners just got a lot tougher. Boldin still has a few good years left in him and he can snatch that ball out of the air with CB’s drapped all over him. Kaepernick must be jumping for joy.
I overslept yesterday morning by 10 minutes and started freaking out. I was worried about getting to work later than usual. I would not be late to work as I usually get there 30 minutes early because I take my daughter to school. So I was freaking out over nothing.
I kept thinking about my general routine that I go through when I get to work and worrying that I wouldn’t be able to do it all before clocking in. I could feel my blood running faster and in my head I was running faster trying to make up those damn 10 minutes.
What all this made me realize is that I need to let go of routines and just go with the flow. When I finally got to work I stepped out back, and took a moment to breathe and slow myself down. I thought about how enjoyable those 10 extra minutes of sleep were.
Welcome to March. I have less than a month before Blythe’s birthday. I cannot believe my daughter, my baby is going to be 15. Time sure has a way of passing whether you are paying attention or not. Here are my thoughts for today.
I am finding every day that there is so much to be amazed at. I think my heart is truly opening to all the wonderful things out there in the Universe. The feeling of being amazed by something every day is a wonderful feeling.
As I am opening up to the possiblitites my connection with Giselle is getting stronger. I can’t even find the words to express the feelings and the accepting of what is going on. Things are being shown to me and I am finally smart enough to see them.
It is truly beautiful and magical.
I had an AHa (otherwise known as DUH) moment earlier in the week. As usual I came across a terrific post on Facebook that just hit me and made perfect sense of something I had been struggling to understand, Abundance.
I was so simple and I am not sure why I hadn’t grasped this before. I mean Giselle and I have talked about Abundance more than once, but I never ‘got it’ until now. I know Giselle has told me this before but it never sunk in. I guess it is all about timing.
Abundance is enoughness!
I was thinking that Abundance meant unlimited or excess I guess. I know Abundance is unlimited so that may not be the right word. What I thought was I would have money falling out of every pocket, you know, enough so that $100 becomes pocket change, so money is never an issue. Because of these views, views that I didn’t even really understand that I had until now, I thought Abundance was a myth.
It has now been 5 months since my rebirth, since my life changed, since I truly became open to changing, since I became truly aquainted with Spirit, Mother Earth and the Universe, since I realized I am a Spiritual Being having a Human experience.
I learn something new every day, or maybe I am just really accepting what I already know. I felt such a huge change in my life after the rebirth and I thought I was on easy street. I realize know how silly that thought was because I have certainly had quite a few struggles in the last 5 months.
I know that every struggle is important and is needed for my growth. Recently I feel like I am coming out of the fog. I thought I came out of the fog before but maybe the fog just got thiner. Even after the rebirth, I still spent a lot of time in my head. I spent a lot of energy thinking about the past and the future.