I don’t know what is up with me today. I had a good weekend and a good day at work but driving home something just took hold of me. All of a sudden people were just getting on my nerves. I was yelling and cussing and just not feeling centered at all.
I was full of judgement.
I judged the people jaywalking across a very busy street less than 50 feet From the light and crosswalk.
I judged the people speeding who almost rear ended other cars and then almost sideswiped others When quickly changing lanes.
I judged the person who parked next to me at the store. They had backed in crooked leaving about 1 foot of space for me to enter my car.
I judged them all as Idiots.
Now I’m home and I am an emotional wreck. I did some conscious breathing but all the crazy emotions are still flowing. It makes me think there is some reason for it all but I’ll be damned if I can figure out what it is.
While driving I was filled with anger and obviously judgement but now at home I am not sure exactly what I am filled with. I do know that I am crying at any little thing. I have stopped fighting it and am just letting it all flow through me but I still wonder what it is all about.
The ups and downs and ebbs and flows of awakening are unsettling for sure but I am doing my best to just go with it all.
Spirit give me strength.