“Sometimes letting things go is an act of far greater power than defending or hanging on.”
― Eckhart Tolle,
A New Earth:
Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose
When I first saw this it really touched me. I am struggling right now with letting go of my mind, my thoughts, the lies, the illusions, basically everything I thought to be real.
I don’t want to be suffering but I am. My problem is that I think I can control it, even though I know I can’t. If it’s in my story to suffer, then I will suffer, there is not a damn thing I can do about it.
I have a lifetime of living in my head and I truly don’t know how to stop it. My mind is racing with chaos and I can’t make any sense of it or anything.
I am waiting for that great power to come in and allow me to let it all go but I don’t know how to allow it. I know there is nothing I can do to allow it. Again, if it is written in my story then it will be. I just wish it wasn’t so hard.
I want the freedom and the happiness that comes with letting it all go and conceptually I understand how to do it. It is on the non-conceptual level that I struggle. And that is where the problem lies. Too much in my head. Unsure of how to get out of it. Unsure of everything.
I don’t want to go back to being a Pinto and I certainly don’t want to give the keys to the Lamborghini to a 5 year old. I hope it is written in my story to have the road ahead be paved with true happiness.