Photo By Me, Cheryl Larkin
I had a bit of a melt down the last few days. It has been building for a while, I think and it finally exploded. I was really down and feeling unappreciated in every aspect of my life. I did a lot of crying and moping.
The weird thing is that even through the tears I was still able to look at nature and smile. It was a strange feeling being able to smile even when I was feeling so down. It was like I was two people, connected but separate with all the emotions flowing through both sides.
Photo by me, Cheryl Larkin
Sometimes letting go is really more about accepting what was always there. When you belive something is a particular way it certainly helps guide your thoughts and actions. As I am frowing into the true me I am realizing that some things that I am fighting to let go of are really just illusions that I have believed for so long they seem real to me.
The more I fight letting go, the more I see that all I really need to do is accept how things have always been without my rose colored glasses. I am not sure if that makes it easier but it does make me realize that I don”t really need to let go. I guess it is all about my perception.
Photo By Me, Cheryl Larkin Of Painting I Painted
I admit it. I got caught up in the routine of life and in other things that were invading my mind and I just plain stopped putting any energy into my painting and my ETSY store. I allowed so many other things to take hold of my energy. I feel like I have maybe slept walked through most of 2015.
Photo by Me, Cheryl Larkin – Edited to add Quote
Well, it has been anotehr year. That makes 3 years since I first met Giselle and my life began to change. I have certainly done a lot of growing and changing in these past 3 years, and I think Giselle has done some of her own as well.
I am still making my way and figuring out my path but I am definitely doing so with more pep in my step. The changes in me are amazing and I am excited to see what is going to happen each and every day. What a gift Giselle has given me by holding sacred space when I needed and kicking me in the ass when needed.